I Set Myself Free

I had just finished my Asiaworks Advanced Course. For the past 5 days, it was really a roller coaster journey for me. However, it was also very revealing of who I really was in the past. I had not noticed them myself, neither could my loved ones who I faced everyday. It was really amazing that in this training, even those who had not spoken to me could see through me. If words were not communicated between us, it must be the energy that I radiate out. You can't hide that energy. If you are real, the energy is real, if you are fake, the energy is fake, if you are in silence, you still have the energy.

Till now I could not exactly tell what is the course about. There is also no right solutions about how to handle specific problems. But I do know what are the things that are possible for me, and whether I have really gone 100% doing it.

In the past, I had hold on certain things badly, which I myself wasn't even aware of it. To put in the right frame, I probably chose to ignore it. But even with me ignoring those things, it had subconciously been put on my shoulders. I thought everything was going smoothly for me, and I could handle it very well, just that sometimes I have my ups and downs. But now I realise, no matter how well I handle the problems, I wasn't in the right set of mind.

After I went through this training, I feel that I could really set myself free. I may not be able to solve certain problems still, I may not have any right solutions, but I know I have the right set of mind to face them and to handle them. Not that I am giving myself with good excuses of not being able to get things done. But I know what results I want to create, what are the obstacles that I set for myself which I have to overcome and whether I have put in 100% effort in my actions. I have been pushing lots of responsibilities and blame away to some other people, like most people do, in order to make myself feel better. But by doing this, I was also being irresponsible.

In the training, I see many types of people, the powerful ones, the weak ones, the vulnerable ones, the resisting ones, the righteous ones, the bitter ones, the lost ones and the violent ones. But we do have a common problem - dealing with own feelings and dealing with relationships, especially with the people who are important to them. All these naturally shows up in the training, no matter how hard they tried to hide. I also see lots of transformations in them after the training. Not that they have changed, but they finally bring out the power that is inside them, be it love, passion, confidence, authenticity, etc, from the support of other people around them. I was very touched to see each and everyone of them, including myself, grow.

These are what we have just brought it to the surface of our lives. Whether we are able to continue to hold these inner power, its really up to individual. Some of them had used it to create many successes in their lives - in relationships, careers, in their own passion, etc. But some just return back to their own original position.

What is going to happen next, I don't know. But for now, I am committed to living my life with love, passion and confidence. I want to bring these across my family and those who are close to me, as well as to the well being of others. Sound sacred? But at least, I believe I can do it.